The Truth & Transformation of My Last 15 Years... Chubby Hawaii girl to Wifey In Washington!
Superbowl Storytime Sunday:
a lot of peeps have asked me "can you share about how you got to where you are now?"
And yes, I sure can. I want to talk to you about what gets in the way, how I got it out of the way, and grew to where I am now!!
🌴 Growing up in the islands of Hawaii I think I compared myself a lot to my slim and skinny friends and that is where I think a lot of my self-hatred & propensity towards depression originated.
💁🏼 By the time I was a brand-new teenager I pretty much hated myself. And I just couldn't look past the chubbiness and extra flab and see that I was beautiful. I didn't like how it looked and most clothes and swimsuit shopping was an absolute nightmare. 🙈
🙋🏼 Yes, I have a different body composition then my skinny island friends and also I was raised in a house that used sugar as a drug. So because of that I also was a chubby, overweight teen Who also was addicted to sugar and thought that she was "all good" because she worked out five or six days a week. But I felt like I was on a hamster wheel because I would go up a couple pounds down a couple pounds and always stayed chubby and flabby and I just knew that that wasn't the best I could be.
🏃🏼♀️👉🏼 So the start of the transformation first happened when I forgave some of the kids that teased me in Hawaii, I let go of the comparison between me and my childhood friends and I embraced the crazy hair, the stocky frame and a short stature. And that is honestly I feel like the best place to have started. With my INSIDES. Because then I began building a healthier body on the foundation of loving myself, not trying to get skinny out of hating myself. And sure, I've struggled from time to time with some strands of self hatred, and every time I realize it, I remind myself the truth! I AM VALUABLE. My VALUE IS CONSTANT!!! I am a daughter of the king of the universe. I am strong, powerful and everyday in every way I'm getting better and better!
🙌🏼💪🏼 When I found Beachbody it was at my lowest point. My heaviest weight. I was working out 6 days a week with techniques that were NOT getting me results and then I was also eating CRAP, not to mention starving myself for part of the day, because I was not taking the time to take a lunch as a restaurant manager. I was not practicing self-love and self care practically at that point.
👊🏼 So when I found my first Beachbody program, I knew it was a match made in heaven because the Insanity looked freaking hard and I wanted to challenge myself! So basically I married the inner transformation of self-love with the action of trying something new and challenging myself. I partnered that with focusing on fueling myself with correct nutrition
🍔You sandwich all that together and the result is three years later I'm 20 pounds down, more muscular and learning how to eat better every day while focusing on loving myself daily, practically. Keeping my INSIDES AND OUTSIDES healthy.
👇🏽👊🏼Now it's time to challenge myself MORE.
Last year was FULL of challenges. I hit rock bottom again, struggled in my marriage, with suicidal thoughts and depression, then had a MAJOR breakthrough in my relationship with my man! We didn't have our "own" home the entire year and It felt like most of the year was preparing to move, but we didn't know WHERE until January 1 of this year! Ahhh. It was a tough year and now that we are "kind of settled", I am refocusing on refilling my cup and eating to fuel. My biggest challenges are when I get LOW and have those depressed feelings. I just don't want to go out, eat right or anything. So I am working to heal and focus on FUELING my body. This is my year for a 6 pack, to lift heavy, to make my business full time with over $5000 in income per month! I am excited for being in Washington and excited to do this adventure with my husby and best friend.
✌🏼️😈 So tomorrow I re-dial into my simple color coded portion system and on Thursday I commit to starting a 60 day schedule of one of our no-guesswork at-home fitness programs! I'm gonna keep morning meditation as a key practice daily, listening to sermons and Brene Brown and striving to challenge myself daily and forever!
I'm ready for s'more change. I'm ready baby. Let's go. 🍷Here's to the 2nd month of the year and being in the BEST SHAPE OF MY LIFE MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY & PHYSICALLY 👊🏼😈🙌🏼
I'd love to chat with you about challenging yourself, maybe you wanna try 30 days of something different, MMA, YOGA, or try our whole year of fitness on special?!
I'm LIVING PROOF that if you let go of comparison, embrace SELF LOVE (where ever you're at) & take ACTION, YOUR LIFE CANNOT STAY THE SAME. 💋
